By
Rudyard Kipling. My all-time favourite poem, secret to success and my current
desktop wallpaper :). But this if, is inspired by the novel One, by Richard
Bach. A novel about him and his wife meeting their selves in alternate
universes. Seeing the right and wrong turns they took and how in each of them
their meeting is very different.
A post
written a long time ago that triggers some more thoughts to add but I'll leave
that for a little into the future because right now… I am still looking forward
and not back while embarking on the first step in my career :D
The
calendar says June 3, 2010. The clock, 11:19pm. Location in a fellow Indian's
house, a friend of a friend, in a country that is not my own - West Lafayette,
USA - home to Purdue University, my place of internship for Summer 2010. The
friend is actually my mentor's family. The friend of the friend is their
neighbour - the people who have put me up for the night before my mentor's
son's thread ceremony for which I have been invited (Yaay!).
Conversations
here trigger a 'What If…' set of scenarios in my mind, maybe because a lot of
people here are doing what I once dreamt of, still dream of, and might someday
dream of doing. Funnily, most of it has to do with academic aspirations (just
says how limited my scope has become I guess… but then if not now, then when
would I think of this!). They gnaw at my mind enough to want to put these
thoughts in writing. I don't think this would be posted immediately. I don’t
think the people concerned should be made to face the scenarios put up. I am
not holding anything against them. Of course, this is not done in a sense of
regret but more in a sense of curiosity (at least that is how I want it to be
viewed)...
The me
that never left Bangalore because we didn't move. I would have continued in the
same school, continued to do Bharatnatyam at the same place, stayed in the
kresche for a few more years till I could be left alone at home. Watched some
TV, had a few friends, been very very innocent, remembered and learnt Kannada
very well (not the same with Hindi though). Then what? Probably continued to
study hard but any other extra curriculars might not have had time.
The me
that in Bombay did exceedingly well right from the beginning in school, jumped
into all the extra-curriculars, got recognized in school - not passed over -
that possibly became captain of the school house or even head girl!! Probably,
basketball became a speciality, not a novice activity. Maybe dance went all the
way into Arengatram. Maybe tennis became more than just a passion to watch or
dream of to play. Maybe friends became too many to count. Maybe the nights were
longer just because I stayed out with them.
The me
that did not screw up the engineering exams. Maybe gotten into IIT after 2
years of hard work. Maybe gotten the course I wanted, been exposed to something
very different from what I know today. Maybe preparing for GRE this year
instead of next or would it have been CAT then? Maybe I didn't do well in IIT,
maybe I did. Maybe got into IIST or IISER - the people who then gave me false
hope - and done well there. Maybe got into Pilani, into a single degree course.
The me
that got to write SAT. Maybe I be able to stay I came to Purdue or CMU or
Harvard or MIT or Stanford or Berkley. Maybe I would have lived in the US here
for 3 years, become very much a localite, not turned back to India only because
home was there. Maybe I would have a scholarship, with extra curriculars not
being affected. Maybe being a girl into sports would have actually turned out
to be a good thing.
The me
that didn't move out of Mumbai at all. Still called it home and went there for
summer and winter, bonded more with everyone else from campus and everyone I
left back there and stayed in touch with them. Still had no curfew and probably
got a driving license too. Got to hang
out with all my friends there, occasionally got to see the club scene and check
out many more of the cool places there.
The me
who moved to US coz we all shifted there. Maybe became school valedictorian,
maybe got a chance to pursue so many more things and become good at them. Maybe
SAT would have worked out then too. Maybe developed an accent :P. Been a
typical American teenager.
The me
who said bye to science! Took up Law maybe. Moved into litigation, graduated to
join a top notch firm in India and started putting in the hours for a run at
being a partner there. The competitiveness still remains or does it worsen in
that cutthroat world? Or decided to become a CA :)… Or would it be
medical? Maybe English or History where
I can bury myself in dingy libraries poring over musty books to gather the
secrets they hold and the stories they told...
The me
who didn't take up studies very much at all! Learnt ballroom dancing and Indian
dances and studied dance. Took off for a few months to back pack around in
obscure places. Learnt too sing as well. Performed on stages and with troupes.
Learnt to live the high life (as in Nicleback's 'Rockstar' :P)…
But then,
none of these scenarios bring me here where I am today… With the people I know,
doing what I am doing now… Not one of
them at all!! Life can always much better. But life could also be much much
worse. One moves onto the next day sometimes with only that as the
strength!! One sleeps peacefully at
night, thankful for what has happened so far with this in mind...
